Lu

Posted Wednesday, April 10, 2024

2mo

ENFP

Taurus

4

5

The eternal now.

I’ve always been interested in meditation. I think for reasons beyond the meditation itself what I mean by that is I used to want to meditate for a reason I think I’ve always felt that something was missing in my life there have definitely been times where I had thought that meditation would bring about some sort of improvement, if I could make it to an hour or maybe even two, or if I can sit all day, maybe I could become “enlightened” i’ve read many books on spirituality and Buddhism and Zen, and even self-help in general and most of these books, advocate meditation. And they even go as far as saying that the point of meditation isn’t to get better it’s simply just to learn how to quiet your mind and to exist in the moment. the problem with this is that I could easily intellectualize everything. These books were telling me but I never really got it. For the past few months, I’ve been going through a period of deep self growth. The growth was forced upon me by a separation from my partner of 10 years, and because we have two kids together I have put myself through a lot of guilt, shame and self apathy in general. Without getting into too many details about the changes I’ve been through. I want to focus on meditation since this is the topic I recently took about 4 g of Psilocybin (magic mushrooms) with a deep intention to find a T truth a thing that I’ve been aimlessly, looking for my whole life a feeling of wholeness and unity. at the peak of my trip I got there. I really did feel it and it was truly awesome. I remember that there was no separation. “I” was everything there was nothing else but “me” and as a matter of fact, there was nothing else. There was no past no future there was just this. I had this deep deep understanding that there was just now this moment is all that exists, and all that has ever existed, and all that will ever exist. I felt it so deeply that “” transcend all things “I“ M all things I am all ideas I am all time all dimensions and all of it is happening right now. I just want to share that story it was a true before and after moment in my life and I am so grateful to have experienced it. I’m not saying that you need mushrooms to get there and I’m also not saying that there is necessary, because the truth is you are there you’ve always been there, and as a matter fact, there is nowhere else you can be. I know it sounds so funny saying this, but I’ve actually read something like the words I’m speaking to you right now many times through many books and yet I’ve still never understood it I guess if you’re someone who is meditating a lot and trying to find the inner peace stop trying. You are divine and you are perfect. I love you.